Noelle

badkitty3618@aol.com — Wed, 04 Jun 2003 18:15:07 GMT

Yup, another day goes by where not one person has called me. I havent done ne thing all summer during the day, and ive gone out twice at night. Annette told me that she was mad at me for what i told Kim. Which is reasonable, but it would have been nice if she would have fucking told me and not just been mean to me. She doesnt think she is that mean to me, but you arent suposed to be mean to your best friend, so being kinda mean is a lot of mean...but she hasnt called me all summer except monday morning at 7 to tell me she was bored. I guess when she doesnt have anyone eles to call she calls me. When i finially did say something to her about it i stared to cry and then she told me she was mad and then she was like, but i love you. so i really dont get it...and then she tells me she needs a break from me. but theres nothing i can say about that.It just sucks for me cuz i dont have anyother friends really. Ya i have Sam and Leslie, but they dont really seem like they want to hang out with me. And i have Katie Farrell, Jere, and Catilin but none of them ever get fucked up, and like, i dont know. Thats really bad that i dont want to hang out with them because they dont smoke or drink, but its the truth...And Kim said that she wanted to hang out with me over the summer cuz Kyle said that spend too much time together, but i doubt that she will call me.I hope this summer doesnt suck.
You know what pisses me off? ok Betsy left this notebook in my locker, and she is away in NC for school or some place like that, who knows when i am going to fucking see her again. So i took the notebook home (i didnt know it was hers till after i took it home, i thought it was kims and i was going to give it to her) but then i looked in it and there was a note to Loren (Betsys boyfriend) so i figured it was hers. And so i wasnt going to save it to give it back to her, so why waist all that paper - cuz she only wrote on like 10 pages - and throw it away, or write in it. And i told Annette that and she starts bitching at me and saying i have to feelings for other peoples things...who fucking gives a rats ass. I could see if there was like a lot of writing in it, but there was a note, and then like little drawlings that were erased and shit...but whatever, i dont fucking care.
I keep having dreams lately. I never have dreams tho so its really weird! and almost every single one i have Chase Allen is in it! and thats weird...
I like Chase! hes so fucking hot! me and him did kinda talk for a while, like he would call me and we would talk for like a hour or so. But he hasnt called me in a long time. Ill call him once and a while and we talk, but then hes always going somewhere and he says he'll call me back later that night. But i know he wont - he has never called me back at night - and his excuse is "I was druck" everytime!! but he does get drunk all the time, so whatever. ALCOHOLIC! but i dont know. i dont know if i should call him. Cuz when i call him he does talk to me for like 20 or 30 minutes and like i could see if everytime i called he didnt talk for a long time and was like ill call you back and never did - then i shouldnt call him, but he does talk. I dont know. I want him bad tho!!
Me and Tyler are kinda talking again. I dont know why! i still like him..i think i always will. I dont know if he likes me tho. i dont know. Well i am going to go watch TV or something.
Someone did call me today! Yay...Tyler called me! well atleast i got one phone call.

badkitty3618@aol.com — Thu, 08 May 2003 22:32:53 GMT

heyy, i havent written in forever! i was looking back on my other entries, and man are some people stupid *counting myself* hmm, i dont write in journals anymore since mine got read by my dad, and i really need to get some stuff out of my head, so i decided to write in here. No ones gunna read this anyway...Let me start out - I Have The Biggest Crush On Chase Allen!! man-o-man, hes extreemly hot, and so nice. I wish we were still in Miami for State. Me and him flirted a lot. And u know when u have chemistry with someone, u can kinda tell like how u look at eachother. Well it was like that, and oh man...he is the only thing i can think about, and he is leaving in a week!! well now me and annette are fighting about something, so i am going to finish writing later cuz now chase isnt on my mind.

ok,i wrote this last Saturday but LiveJournal hasnt been working for me so i am posting it now! =)

badkitty3618@aol.com — Wed, 07 Aug 2002 15:30:07 GMT

well last night i went to the movies...it was fun as always! we didnt see a movie. We just walked around like losers...i was a little high, which always seems to make the night a lot better! lol
i miss Sam! i have been thinking that ever since soccer started, and then i talked to her yesterday on the phone and i relized how much i missed her.
last night i kept feeling like i was leaving someone cuz i was with Leslie and Brittany but then i wanted to be with Annette and then when i was with Annette i wanted to be with Leslie and Britany, i didnt know what 1 to be with, and they were like never together, so i kept going back and forth. Hahaha, it was hilarious, Casey threw a dead fish at Tonya!
I met this really hot guy from California, his whole baseball team was there. They were here for some tournament. He was the only good looking one, and i dont even remember his name or when he is leaving. But i gave him my number and then like the whole team asked for my email address so i gave it to them.
OMG last night my sister Steph came home and she brought her friend, and she looks like a dyke. and i am a little suspicious...cuz Steph and her husben just broke up....and i am just waiting for tomorrow night when everyone is here for her to be like 'i am a lezbian' but i hope she doesnt!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 29 Jul 2002 01:44:16 GMT

well i have had a lot of fun lately! i have been talking to Brandon a lot....i like him, but i dont know...why am i always so damn confused about guys? Last night Annette told me she knows how i feel, and that shes been there, so that made me feel a lot better. Atleast im not the only one! I know i am so pathetic, but i still like Tyler. I cant get over him! no matter how hard i try. But i do like Brandon too!
I went to Leslie's house Wednsday night after soccer. Me and Leslie always have the best time! well after we met at Lions Park we went to the mall, and she wanted me to go in all sweaty and in soccer clothes. i was like umm No! so we sat in the car and talked. Then we went into Walmart *i didnt mind going in there cuz i looked better in my soccer clothes then half the people there in their regular clothes! haha* and we rented A Walk To Remember and Slackers. So half way inbetween A Walk To Remember the VCR broke. So then Justin has this great idea to go up to Walmart *cuz they r open 24 hours a day!* and buy a cheep VCR and watch the movies and then return it the next day and buy a good one! so we go, and Justin was tellin me how hes always wanted to go in through where all the carts are, and i wanted to really bad! but no one would go with me so i didnt. and then me and Leslie were looking at the clothes, and they wernt half bad! like everyone says that Walmart clothes are so ugly, well they really arent! and then i was reading what happened in our soap opera outta one of those magazines and this guy was like staring us down! and then when we were leaving i was going to go out where the carts are and right when i get there this guy comes running through and i was like 'can i go through there?' and hes like 'NO!' and 'i was like But my car is right there!!' and hes like 'No, so u have a receit for that?' and Lauren had the receit and was already like out the store and so we had to like yell at her to come back. and since he didnt let me go through there when i was walking out i screamed 'This place is so damn trashy! and then i saw this guy sitting on a bench, and i was like, 'no its not,' its a really nice place!' :)
Then me and Leslie went shopping the next day, after Passions of course! lol it was fun. As always. We saw Brandon and Kyle D. there...i didnt really want to see him cuz i wanted to shop and it was hard with him there...so they left and went to some music store, and then they couldnt find us when they got back.
Then on Friday we went to the movies. When i got there i was with Leslie and Brittany. And then i guess Monicas little party thing was on Friday too so all the guy were there. Bobby is so fucking hott! Then i met up with Brandon. Gawd some people piss me off! all these guys were like 'do u actually like him??' and 'You could do so much better' bla bla bla! and i hate when people say that! cuz then it makes me think about it and then i start not to like him! And i shouldnt care what they think, but i always do. not about me, just about who i like....so then that fucker Chad asks to pay for my ticket with my money, *and i had to pay for Brandon AGAIN!* and he gives me my ticket but not my change. and i didnt relize till i got home. So Chad owes me $9 and Brandon owes me $11...and me paying for Brandon two times in a row is really starting to piss me off! Then in the movie i was holding Brandons hand cuz i was scared *we saw Halloween Reserection* and then when we got out we were all talking to Tyce. I love talking to him! hes so hilarious when hes high... and i felt really bad cuz Brandon was just sitting on a railing and no one was talking to him so i kept going back and forth, cuz everyone was around Tyce, and i wanted to talk to them too...so then after standing there for like 20 minutes we walk around and me and Brandon go and meet this kid Jermey. Annette likes him so i wanted to meet him. OMG this kid has so much energy! he was like running around the whole time! And so me and Brandon were hangign out with all these guys. and one of them i went to elementry school with. And there was this kinda cute one. His name was Brandon too. and then one of them asked what time it was and he was like grabbing my rist looking for my watch and i was like do u want to look at my cell phone and he was like ya, and then like all these people were like hitting him, and they were like 'yo thats Brandons girl' but they were a lot of fun to hangout with! and then Ann Eaton came over and we were talking. And then me and Brittany wanted to go and find Leslie, Katie, Alexa, and Mike... so we left. and i felt really bad cuz i went up to Brandon and i was like 'i am going to go find Leslie and all them,' and he was like 'am i coming?' and i was like 'no.' and he just looked at me and i was like, 'you dont like them, and u have a better time with your friends' and he huged me and then me was like going to kiss me, but i pulled away, cuz i really didnt want to. and so i left. And then we met them at the pizza place and then we left and we went back over to the circle cuz my dad was coming soon. And me and Mike were talking. and he told me that he liked me, but i already knew that...and then when my dad came i was like hugging people and Brandon was like 'hey' and so i went back and hugged him.
I kept seeing Tyler all night, that was kinda weird cuz i am used to being with him. god why do i still like him?? i dont want to!
and I dont want Brandon to like me! because i know he is going to get hurt. I know that he likes me a lot..and i dont want him too. cuz i dont know if i like him, i am so confused. I feel so bad, cuz i know how much he likes me, and i know how that feels to like someone so much and not for them to like you back. But Brandon doesnt know that i dont like him that much, i really need to tell him....
Robert B. pisses me off sometimes! he has a girlfriend and he always tells me how he will cheat on her with me. But he is such a player! he trys to get ne girl he can get!
Saturday night i went over to Annettes house. I wasnt going to cuz Leslie asked me to go shopping with her on Sunday but i really wasnt in the shopping mood. So i went over to Annettes house, and we went out at like 2. Ugh, i had a bad time, but yet it was a good time. Annette was with Jason, and i was with Danny. Ok Annette thought Danny was hot, but i didnt think so! So Annette and Jason went in Dannys bedroom and slept, that is so cute! i wanna actually sleep with someone! lol...but me and Danny were on the couch and i was like laying in his lap, and then he was like rubbing my sides, and i knew he wanted some...so i turned around and we started making out, and we madeout for a long time, but the rest is a secret :)
Annette kept getting mad cuz Jason kept telling me that i had a nice big ass, and he kept poking me and all this stuff, and i understand why she got mad. And then when we were leaving Jason was like 'hold on i gotta piss' then he was like 'hay Noelle, u ever seen a dick' and im like 'ya' and hes like 'come over here' and i didnt say ne thing, i just got in the car. And then in the car i was rubbing his head cuz his hair felt really cool! and then Annette got REALLY pissed. And so we had a little pow wow in the bathroom when we got back and talked about it all.
Then today we wont up at 1 and then we layed in bad te rest of the day. We went dowstairs for maybe a hour when we were online. I love just sitting at Annettes. Its never boring. We just sit there. I love Annette! but i am going to go to sleep soon cuz i have to get up early for soccer camp! grr

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 29 Jul 2002 01:39:05 GMT

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 22 Jul 2002 14:27:07 GMT

well have i got a story for you! Annettes house is always such a blast! lol...well i went over there Thursday night, and we were talking to this kid Robert Bigilow online. And i have been talking to him for a while. and he sent me his picture and he looks really really good in the pictures...so we are like do u wanna come over tomorrow. So we make plans for him to come over the next day. Then when her parents finally go to bed, and me and Annette wanna smoke so bad, but we dont have ne thing to smoke it with..so we take a plastic like water bottle, and we put tin foil on in and Annette pokes this big ass whole in it. haha, it was great.. but did that fucked ever work! lol...then me and Annette made a video of us like talking and when we watched it the next day we said the stupidest things!
But then Friday Annette and Renee had to go to their grandma and grandpa's house. So Renee drops me off at Wendys and i sit there for fucking 40 minutes - just sitting there! waiting for Robert. This old guy came up to me and was like "can i do ne thing for you?" and i was like "no, im ok" it was so cute. Then Robert gets there and we have to walk back, and that takes forever!! then when we get back, it was just me and him. And we were talking for awhile, and then we just started making out...and like he was going to take off my shorts but i was like "ummm" and he was like "you dont want me to" and i was like "no, i bearly know you" and he was fine with that. then Annette and Renee came home, and like then Me Annette and Robert just chilled and talked for awhile. Then Mike B. came over and we smoked again in Annettes moms room and i spilt it all in her bed! i felt so retarted! i really shouldnt smoke infront of people cuz i am so dumb! Then Me and Robert made out some more, and then i paid Renee $2 so she would drive him home cuz i didnt want him to have to walk all that way again.
Robert is alright. I donno. I dont really know if i like him or not...he doesnt really talk, and i dont like when guys dont talk. but i am so confused. I cant belive i made out with him so much and that was the 1st time i met him. And this is the worst part is, at first when we were making out all i could think of is Tyler. But then after a while i stopped - thank god!
But then after Mike B. left at like 5, me and Annette still sat around and did nothing! but then at like 7:30 we started getting ready for the movies! lol..and when we got there we saw Mike F, so we stayed with him. ya know Mike isnt that bad...i have always thought he was really annyoing, but he really isnt. He sometimes trys to show off, but otherwise hes cool. And then we met up with Brandon Hanson. Hes so nice! Annette told me that Mike said that he liked me...hmm
Now here comes the fun part! lol...well when me and Annette got back to her house her sisters cell phone rings and she starts talking to this guy. and im like who the fuck r u talking to?? and she was talking to this guy Jason. Hes 19 and he works with Renee. and he was like would Renee wanna party with us? and Annette was like no, she has a friend over and she wont sneek out. and he was like well do you wanna party? and shes like hell ya! then after like 1 hour she wakes me up and is like common we gotta go. so we got out there and this kid Ryan *also 19* picks us up in his car and we go to his house. omg when Jason stood up me and Annette were like holy shit. This kid is 6'5! he is so fucking tall. he had to bend down to get in the doors and under the lamp, its was hilarious. And we smoked 2 blunts, well i only smoked 1 of them cuz i was so fucking high. i have never been that high in my life! and since i dont smoke that much i couldnt take that much at one time! i really dont remember what i was saying, i just remember telling all of them not to listen to what i was saying cuz i had no idea what it was. and it was just freaking me out, but it was pretty fun. And we didnt get freaky or ne thing like that - we just chilled. i wanted to, but i knew better! we were watching this freaky movie and it was making everything worse, cuz it was spinning and at first i thought it was just me, but then i asked Annette and shes like i donno, and they were like no, its supposed to spin, and it was like pink
. i dont remember what it was called, Something Lounge. Then we went back home, omg i thought me or Annette was gunna fall off her shed! i was so scared!
Then on Saturday we went to the beach for like 1 hour cuz Brandon wrote us this email begging us to go, so we went and then we couldnt even find him! but oh well. And we had to walk the bridge there and back! now that is so work! let me tell you! lol...And then Renee was car flirting with these guys! it was hilarious!
Then my dad picked me up from Annette's at like 5, and he was asking me what i did last night and i was like 'oh we just sat around' and he was like 'you didnt go to the movies??' and i was like 'ohh ya, ya we did. i thought u ment after the movies!' haha, i couldnt remember what we did! and like i have been writing this enrty since i got home but it takes me a couple of days to write it cuz i never feel like doing it all at once and it took me the longest time to remember what i did!
HAHA Leslie just told me that Robert B. has a girlfriend! woops. i bet she wouldnt be to happy. Ooo that boy makes me mad, i even asked him if he had a girlfriend. lol, well i guess he is off my list! haha
Aww last night or the night be4 that, i dont remember, i was talking to Kyle D. and he was telling me how he liked Annette and he was like 'ya,im not what u would call good looking' and i was like 'yes you are!' and i was tring to make him feel better and he was like 'ya i asked a bunch of girls out this summer and all of them said no' and i was like 'well u r just asking the wrong girls! lol' and he was like 'the first time i met you i had the biggest crush on you' and i was like 'when i met u at Kims house??' and he was like 'ya' and i was like 'well everyone gets their crushes, theres nothing to be emabrassed about' and he was like 'ya but i couldnt sleep' and i was like woah! i never knew that someone could like me that much! so now he likes me and Annette. He has liked Annette for a while now i think....And some1 eles likes me, but i cant say who cuz im not supposed to know. But i donno, i kinda like him...but i dont really know him. i am always confused about this guy thing.
There is so much i wanna write about me and my mom, but i dont think i am going to. cuz i hate when all you people read my shit! i dont even know why i have this journal thing, i guess its just something to do. But me and my moms stuff is like really personal. Maybe ill write about it later.
I am so exited that Leslie is home! yay!
My dad is going outta town on August 17 and he was like i dont know where to put you. and i was like well i can always stay at the house. and hes like ya. i think he is gunna let me stay here all by myself! woo party! lol...well i am going to go back to sleep! i have been up since 7! bye bye

badkitty3618@aol.com — Wed, 10 Jul 2002 19:24:03 GMT

I am very bored!! so i decided to take a couple of quizzes! :)

what's your inner flower?

[c] s u g a r d
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What is YOUR Highschool label?

Which of Kelly Osbourne's hairstyles are you?
by Razorstar

Which of Kelly Osbourne's random objects are you?
by Razorstar

Ah, im listening to country! what did Alexa and Leslie do to me??!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 08 Jul 2002 15:40:18 GMT

gawd i am so sad/mad/and a whole bunch of other things!!! so i was talking on the phone with Tyler for a couple of hours after i got back. And be4 i even talked to him i was talking to Leslie and i was like "ya i have a bad feeling with Tyler, i feel like he fucked some girl or something" *i hate that, i always get feelings! like before Tyler broke up with me I already knew he was going to, and then (this is really freaky) the night that my brother died i was talking to Adam and out of the middle of no where i was like "ya i worry about my brother sometimes" and he was like "where did that come from" and i was like "i have no clue, i just said it" and like i knew that something was wrong with my brother...and i've done it a bunch of other times, but back to my story* So then i call Tyler, and he was at his moms house, and so he probably got in another fight with his dad. And when he picked up i was like hey! and then he was like hey, who is this?? and i was like Noelle....and he never asks who it is, and like it was just weird that he did. and then he like wasnt talking to me, and i knew that something was wrong. And then we started talking about Tyce, and hes like ya i think you should like Tyce, or go somewhere with him. and i was like why do you always say that?? i hate when you say that! and hes like well i just think that you should. And then i was like so are we going to the movies this weekend and he was like ya, but i cant go friday. And i was like why not?? and he was like i have plans, i am going somewhere with someone *and if u know me, you know that i cant stand when people say something but they dont finish it, so i sat there for like 15 minutes trying to get it out of him* then he was like if i tell you you are going to cry, and i was like i will not! i promise and finally he told me "i am going to the movies with Stevie" and i was like ya, ok. im not crying! and then he starts telling me that whenever he talks to some girl he always feels guilty, and he feels bad for me. and i was like well you shouldnt. and then he said well both you and Stevie *i have no clue how to spell her name* both ike me, and she has liked me for 2 years. *ok and the 1st time i met Stevie she was really mean to me! *well i didtn really meet her* me and tyler were at the movies and she was like throwing shit at us, so it was obvious that she has liked Tyler* and then he was like "i just think that we should see other people, cuz like we arent going out, and i think that we should do stuff with other people" and thats when i started cring..and i was like, what do u think i get asked out by 100 guys everyday?! and hes like well thats true, and Stevie is the only other person i could go out with, and we arent even going to go out cuz she was supposed to call me abck and she didnt *but i know he was just saying that to make me feel better. didnt help!!*....but it just really pisses me off! cuz if you could see the emails he wrote me *i would put them in here, but he would get mad* but he was like "i miss you, and i cant wait to see you again" and i told him "why would you even write those emails if you didnt mean it?!?!" and he was like "i did mean it" damn this kid is so confusing! but i am kinda ok this....like ya i really like Tyler, but i know that it wont work with us, ever!...so now, i know that its really over between us. i just dont get him, he tells me that he likes me but then he is like ya we should see other people. it seems like he likes me, but he doesnt want to, or something like that. i dont know.... but i am going to go back to sleep now! my head hurts from thinking about this shit to much!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 08 Jul 2002 14:55:23 GMT

hey well i am finally back from my vacation..heres how it went down lol

*Soccer Camp*
Well it was pretty fun. I thought it was gunna be hell rooming with Sarah but it was alright. The only thing i didnt like was that i had to listen to Shakira on the way up there! omg, it was total hell! Me and Sarah had the party room the whole time. Everyone would come in our room and watch a movie and eat all our food, but we didnt really care. It was great thought cuz we got an extra bed! we had a bunkbed. So i got the bed all by its self and Sarah got the bottom bunk. So whenever people came on our room we made them sit on the top bunk and then on this dresser i pulled out from underneeth my bed. I really missed Sam! One night i thought about calling her and just telling her that i missed her and that i wish she was my roomate instead of Sarah, but then i thought that she was probably out or didnt really want to hear about soccer. This year was really easy *like the soccer part* i never felt like i was going to die like i have all the other years. I donno if they were just easier on us or if i am just in really good shape. OMG, there were these girls there from Georga, they had the most annoying acsents i have ever heard! grr, i wanted to rip off their heads! but our team won every game, and had no goals scored on us! woo hoo!
I felt really bad cuz one night i was talking to Tyler on the phone and i was like "sorry Sarah but i really want to talk to him, cuz im not gunna see him for another week" so i talked to him till 12! and i had to get up at 6:30! but then in the morning i was like "Im sorry 4 being on the phone last night. But u know how it is, when you really really want to talk to this guy that you like?!" and shes like "no, i dont" and i was just like ohhhhh... i felt so bad. Sarah just got her first boyfriend in 9th grade ...

*Monday and Tuesday*
We went to Tennesee to see my sister. and we stayed in this shitty hotel! omg, this was the poorest town i have ever been in! everyone lived in tralers! i felt so bad for all of them. My sister's house isnt that bad tho. He baby, Wyatt, is so cute! i just wanted to eat him! lol...he is adorable!!
on Monday night i got so drunk with Sue! it was hilarious. Before dinenr i had 3 madresses, and then after dinner me and Sue still wanted to drink. So we stopped at this store s got a Bahama Momma shot and i got a Ala Bama Slama. It was so good! and then i had a bunch of wine woolers after that... and we played checkers in the hotel room *i beat her and my dad!*

*Wednsday-Saturday*
I went to Sue's parents house. OMG Sue's mom is so fucking annoying!! she talks and talks and talk!!! she could talk to a brick wall if she wanted to! and no one listens to her. god! i wanted to kill her! we went to these craft shows, they were so boring. And then we went to this mall, it was terrible! i am never complaining about the Edison mall again! On Saturday night, we had a little more to drink, and then my dad was like "go catch some fire flys" so me and Sue go outside and i am running around peoples yards and like jumping trying to catch hese stupid bugs while Sue held the jar...then the stupd fuckers wouldnt light up in the jar so we let them go. but it was a lot of fun!!

Tyler is the sweetest thing! he wrote me this email telling me that he misses me and he cant wait to see me again and that if i gave him the number here he would call so i didnt have to pay for long distance. So we talked on the phone Thursday night for like 1 hour. God i love that kid! lol
I think that me and Leslie are going to get together Monday night cuz she is leaving Thursday! :( i am gunna miss her! who am i gunna talk to all day!?! lol

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 24 Jun 2002 04:12:53 GMT

I miss Alexa!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 24 Jun 2002 04:05:57 GMT

Hey, well today i went shopping with Leslie. It was a lot of fun. I bought two shirts. And we ate at Silver Spoon, and our waiter was really weird! He scared us! lol
I was just on the phone with Tyce. We were online and he was like "call me, oh wait dont. cuz tyler is here and you'll wanna talk to him" and i was like "if i call YOU that means i wanna talk to YOU." So i called him and we were talking for like a hour. It was fun, i havent talked to him in so long. He wouldnt tell Tyler that I was on the phone cuz he said that Tyler would think that he was taking his girl, and i was like im not his girl! and he was like well he will get upset. Tyce thinks that Tyler likes me, but i know that he doesnt. I kinda like Tyce, i dont know why. I know that he doesnt actually like me...
OMG today I asked Sue is Leslie could spend the night and she goes "Leslie? why Leslie? Why not Annette?" and i like started laughing cuz i thought she was kidding but then she didnt even smile and i was like "oh, well Annette is at Kims house" Isnt that so rude! i was about to go off on her and be like 'you know i like Leslie, and she is one of my best friends and if you like Annette more then her then keep it to yourself cuz she isnt your friend!' but i could never go off on Sue. She would kick me out of her house.
Tomorrow i am going over to my moms house to get stuff for soccer camp. I am scared! I dont know how to act around my mom any more. It doesnt even feel like she is my mom, just someone i met before. And i hate that. I miss my mom - my nice mom. The one who never went phyco. My mom used to be nice More then she was mean, and then my brother died and she totally changed. I hate it. She thinks she did something wrong when Jeremy was growing up, so she has to be so more strict and mean. I remember when I was little and I loved my mom so much, and now I hate her....

badkitty3618@aol.com — Sun, 23 Jun 2002 03:16:52 GMT

hey! well i made the soccer team! woo hoo.
Me and Mike got into a fight last night. First he said that I had Tyler whipped, and I didnt. So that got me pissed off and then he was sitting there calling me a whore, and saying that i was going to give Tyler head right when he walked in the room! *and i wasnt* grr he pisses me off! he is so lame! And then he told me that he could make my life a living hell at Cypress next year and i was like riite! cuz everyone likes you!? and then some guy from Cypress IMs me today. I didnt know if Mike told him to mess with me or if i was just a coiencidence....
I think that me and Leslie are going to go to the mall tomorow. We arent doing that thing with the 4 of us cuz Sam is at Katies tonight and she thinks its rude if i picked her up from there. But whatever, we wil just do it in like August!
This whole weekend I sat on my ass and did nothing! Friday night i wanted to go to the movies but i didnt cuz i didnt know if me and Tyce were gunna go tonight and i didnt want him to throw a fit again. And then tonight I was going to go with Tyler, but then he decided to go with his baseball buddys and said that I wouldnt have ne fun if I went. So i sat home with my dad and stepmom and watched The Others. It sucked!
I got a cell phone today! Well actually Sue got a new one and i got her old one. but its still cool!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Fri, 21 Jun 2002 04:20:52 GMT

Yo yo yo! lol....i have had a lot of fun the past two days. First had soccer try-outs on Wednsday and then i went to pick up Annette. I was really pissed off cuz soccer got cancled cuz of the rain and so they reschedualed it for Thursday night and my dad wouldnt let my skip it so our plans were totally screwed over! but its all good cuz now we are doing it on Sunday! but then me and Annettte came back to my house and we watched Black Knight, it was kinda lame, but it was funny. Then we stayed up till 5 and downloaded songs *cuz my Kazaa doesnt work on my name, only on other people* Then today my dad called at 1 and woke me up and was like "Are you up" and i was like "Ya!" So then we got up and went to the playground. All we do when people come over to my house is go to the play ground! its soo much fun!! then we went to the pool and almost got electricuted *how ever you spell that* Then i had to go to soccer. The coaches are calling people to tell them if they made the team tomorrow. It was hilarious. After soccer me and my dad went to Publix and then when we were done Sue called and she asked my dad to come and pick her up from University Grill cuz she was really drunk *she went out with her like best friend* and in the car she was like "Where is my good friend Annette?" and i was like "we took her home" and she was like "Ohhh, i like Annette. Shes nice. She always gives me these looks like Are you shitting me!?" Sue is so funy when shes drunk. She doesnt like me much though, she likes Annette a lot better!
Me and Annette had a really good time. I miss hanging out with her all the time. I hope when we get back from our vacations we hangout more! well i am going to go finish watching Undressed. I love this show!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Tue, 18 Jun 2002 16:50:14 GMT

hey hey! well it is a miserable day, its all cloudy so i cant go to the pool =( I have a dentist app. today and i dont have a ride and i need to cancle it, but im scared! lol. Me and Tyce talked, and hes not mad at me anymore, and we r going to get together this weekend. It was so sweet, i was talking to Tyler last night on the phone and he was like "Promise me when you go with Tyce you wont kiss him or do anything with him" and im like "what?? why" and hes said "Just promise me you wont" and im like "I will promise you after you tell me why" and he was like "Because I dont want him to use you just to get some, and if he really likes you he will ask you out on a second date" and i was like "Ok i promise"... isnt that so sweet! Even tho Tyler doesnt like me a lot, i know that he cares about me cuz if he didnt he wouldnt care if Tyce used me.
I cant wait till Thursday!! Me, Annette, Leslie, and Sam are all going to go shopping in the morning and then go back to some1s house and get ready and then go out to dinner and then see a movie. Its going to be a blast! *We are doing this cuz all four of us havent hung out just the four of us since the day be4 8th grade started and i know all four of us miss it* I hope after Thursday we will start hanging out more!
I have only seen Annette once this summer, and i thought i was going to be with her every single day of the summer, but i guess not. I feel like i am the only one who is trying to get us together. Like i keep asking her if she wants to come over and shes like "Oh im going to Kims" or "Oh im going ot the beach with Kim" ya its understandable if she has already mad plans with Kim but she hasnt asked me to to come over or anything. And we havent talked on the phone in so long. I really only talk to Leslie and Tyler on the phone. I love Annette with all my heart but it really feels like we r drifting, right now i feel like Leslie is my best friend. But i am going to go take the dog out!
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hey hey! well it is a miserable day, its all cloudy so i cant go to the pool =( I have a dentist app. today and i dont have a ride and i need to cancle it, but im scared! lol. Me and Tyce talked, and hes not mad at me anymore, and we r going to get together this weekend. It was so sweet, i was talking to Tyler last night on the phone and he was like "Promise me when you go with Tyce you wont kiss him or do anything with him" and im like "what?? why" and hes said "Just promise me you wont" and im like "I will promise you after you tell me why" and he was like "Because I dont want him to use you just to get some, and if he really likes you he will ask you out on a second date" and i was like "Ok i promise"... isnt that so sweet! Even tho Tyler doesnt like me a lot, i know that he cares about me cuz if he didnt he wouldnt care if Tyce used me.
I cant wait till Thursday!! Me, Annette, Leslie, and Sam are all going to go shopping in the morning and then go back to some1s house and get ready and then go out to dinner and then see a movie. Its going to be a blast! *We are doing this cuz all four of us havent hung out just the four of us since the day be4 8th grade started and i know all four of us miss it* I hope after Thursday we will start hanging out more!
I have only seen Annette once this summer, and i thought i was going to be with her every single day of the summer, but i guess not. I feel like i am the only one who is trying to get us together. Like i keep asking her if she wants to come over and shes like "Oh im going to Kims" or "Oh im going ot the beach with Kim" ya its understandable if she has already mad plans with Kim but she hasnt asked me to to come over or anything. And we havent talked on the phone in so long. I really only talk to Leslie and Tyler on the phone. I love Annette with all my heart but it really feels like we r drifting, right now i feel like Leslie is my best friend. But i am going to go take the dog out!
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badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 17 Jun 2002 00:38:11 GMT

hey...omg this weekend totally blowed! first i was supposed to go to the movies with Tyce on Friday but then my dad said that i could only go to the movies one night this weekend, so basically i picked Tyler over Tyce.
I called Tyce and told him that i couldnt go and then i talked to Sal and he told me to go so i was like ok, i guess I will go. and then I talked to my dad and he told me that i could go only one night. And i tried calling Tyce back to tell him that i couldnt go, but he wasnt there. and then he got online after he got back and screamed at me for picking Tyler over him cuz he asked me first. And i know i should have gone with Tyce cuz he did ask me first and I feel really bad, but i am glad i went with Tyler, i mean i have liked Tyler for a really long time and i only kinda like Tyce. But now Tyce like hates me so i guess he will never talk to me ever again. So Friday night i sat home and talked to Tyler on the phone the whole night.
Then on Saturday i went shopping for my daddy. I went to Old Navy and bought him a bunch of outfits. Then me and Sue went to the mall and we bought bras from Victoria Secrets and i bought a pair of kakki shorts, they're really cute! Then Saturday night i went to the movies with Tyler. I got there later cuz of my sister! but i was walking around with Chad Odem looking with him for Ann. Then i finally found Tyler. And since i was late all the movies were sold out. So we were really bored and we were walking around and talking to all these people i dont know, oh well, i had a good time just cuz i was with Tyler. Then we went into the movie at 9:30. we saw Bad Company. and we were just sitting there holding hands and like he moves the arm rest up and put his arm around me ad i was like "i thought we were just going to be friends tonight" and he just looked at me, and so i kinda like layed on him, i dont know how to explain it..and like he kept kissing my cheek and then we started makingout - i know i shouldnt have cuz i just like him a lot more now, but i dont know if he likes me or not, he acts like he does, but u never know - and then he was kissing my neck. I Love That Sooooo Much! and then it was like 11:20 and i had to leave. And so he walked me outside...gawd i love being with him! How cute is this - my dad went clubbin! lol...he is like 53 and he goes to clubs and dances with Sue. I think that is the cutes thing!
Me and Katie talked, so now i think we are ok. im glad cuz our fight was really stupid. even though we were never really good friends i just hate being in fights with people.

badkitty3618@aol.com — Fri, 14 Jun 2002 01:39:10 GMT

hey, i just got back from soccer, it was cancled cuz of the rain *Thank God* I wrote last night but i got kicked off, and i had so much written! i was so pissed. I am waitig for Leslie to get back from dinner so she can tell me about the mall -she said that it was a disaster.
Well on Tuesday night i went to soccer try-outs. I am so outta shape, but i didnt do to bad. Then i got in the car and i got screamed at by my dad because i got hurt in the second half and then i told him that i asked to go out in the 1st half *cuz i was like about to pass out* and he was like "WHAT?! this is a try-out! i cant belive that, you need to be playing the whole time" bla bla bla! grr that really gets annoying. And then today on the way to soccer he was like "Now today you arent going to ask to go out right" and i was like "ya i am going to if i am about to pass out" and he said "No you should go till you pass out" I AM NOT A FUCKNG FOOTBALL PLAYER!! jesus...I hate how he pushes me so much. I love my dad, but not when if comes to sports. Then i got to Annette's. She was sleeping *she's such a bum! lol* So we just hung out, we watched Fifteen and Pregnent - Me and Annette's movie! lol - Then at like 1 we went to the pool. It was fun *better then sleeping* but it was a lot of fun!! I have a question for anyone who reads my journal....do you think that Annette is a bad influence on me?? Cuz Annette thinks that people think that she is. I dont think that she is. I mean if i didnt want to smoke i wouldnt, and me and Annette have never drank together. So i donno where she gets this from.
Haha get this. Someone asked Amanda why she didnt like me and Annette and she said "I havent liked Noelle from the start, and I dont like some of the things that Annette and Noelle do" and omg....you know who the first person Annette smoked with AMANDA!! haha...that girl is so messed up! she is so retarted!
Me and Sam talked. We are ok now...i really missed her *even tho we havent really talked, but i hate being in a fight with her*
SoccerBabe0225: hey
BadKitty3618: hey
SoccerBabe0225: is les at ur house?
BadKitty3618: no
SoccerBabe0225: alright n/m
BadKitty3618: hey
BadKitty3618: is ne one at ur house??
SoccerBabe0225: nope
BadKitty3618: umm i have a question for ya
SoccerBabe0225: alright
BadKitty3618: why did u all of a sudden just stop liking me
SoccerBabe0225: sorry bout that i was meaning to talk to u bout this
BadKitty3618: ya i guess u have been having so much fun u just forgot about me right
SoccerBabe0225: thats not it
SoccerBabe0225: dont be a bitch aout this b/c im trying 2 apologize
BadKitty3618: well sam u dont know how much that upset me
BadKitty3618: we have been friends for 4 year, and all of the suddemn "i was just about to come out and tell everyone i dont like noelle"
BadKitty3618: im sorry...i am cring now, and i know i am being a bitch
SoccerBabe0225: well in ur journal u said that about me bein such a great friend with that michael feeling u up and that kinda hurt me
SoccerBabe0225: and....
BadKitty3618: well it did
BadKitty3618: cuz i felt like u were calling me a slut
SoccerBabe0225: ur the 1 that said u would have done it
BadKitty3618: no, i was just kidding....you called me up there and asked me to do it and i said no, and then u called me back up there and u said u were just seeing if i would do it
SoccerBabe0225: im sorry 4 that its just he asked me 1st and i said no
SoccerBabe0225: and i was like y dont u ask noelle
BadKitty3618: ok...well then i just misunderstood you
SoccerBabe0225: but its also b/c u and leslie have been really close lately and thta has made me really jealous
SoccerBabe0225: but i know that u guys have had a hard year 2gether
BadKitty3618: thats not exacly why we r together
SoccerBabe0225: and i realized that it was selfish of me 2 be jealous of u 2
BadKitty3618: ya..we like being together, but annette would always leave me for kim and so i would have no one so i would talk to leslie and then i guess u guys started not asking her to go plces so we just hing out
BadKitty3618: well i see where u r coming from cuz u guys have been b/f all year long
SoccerBabe0225: so im sorry...i dont hate u
BadKitty3618: i dont hat eu either
BadKitty3618: i really miss talking to u, and i miss you at soccer
SoccerBabe0225: yea me 2

Me and Tyce talked...I IMed him cuz like a day be4 that he told Annette that he liked her and i wanted to know if it was true and this is what i get!
BadKitty3618: hey
Luvnthegame247: o0oo long time no talk
BadKitty3618: lol
Luvnthegame247: how r u doing?
BadKitty3618: good
BadKitty3618: u?
Luvnthegame247: alright.....but im making it
BadKitty3618: arnt u at ur dads house or something?
Luvnthegame247: yes
Luvnthegame247: i get back wednesday
BadKitty3618: wheres that at
BadKitty3618: cool
Luvnthegame247: WestVirginia
Luvnthegame247: so let me get something straight
BadKitty3618: what?
Luvnthegame247: when i use to like u u would not even give me a "hey i wanna bone u look" but with sal u lick his fingers...that makes me feel pretty shitty
Luvnthegame247: lol
BadKitty3618: haha
BadKitty3618: how did u hear about that??
Luvnthegame247: excuse me u licked sals fingers...sal? u know him the guy who tells me everything about everything
BadKitty3618: haha...i dont remember licking his fingers....
Luvnthegame247: yeah
BadKitty3618: and when did u like me *besides in 7th grade*?
Luvnthegame247: nevermind
BadKitty3618: huh? why nevermind
Luvnthegame247: wel it doesnt matter now
BadKitty3618: u liked me??
Luvnthegame247: duhhh
BadKitty3618: when?
Luvnthegame247: i wrote it to u in an email but then it ding get hecked in like two days so i just unsent it
BadKitty3618: on what screen name?
Luvnthegame247: wut do u think
BadKitty3618: this 1? or the other 1
Luvnthegame247: this one
BadKitty3618: na huh
Luvnthegame247: lol...y is this sucha topic
BadKitty3618: i donno
BadKitty3618: cuz i find it flatering that u liked me
Luvnthegame247: lol...flatering???....thats a good word
BadKitty3618: haha
Luvnthegame247: i like that word
BadKitty3618: =)
BadKitty3618: ok, so how long ago did u send this email?
Luvnthegame247: it doesnt matter...lol
Luvnthegame247: so wut hapened between u and sal ...cuz i got the sal story and the know the katie story and now i want urs
BadKitty3618: well..i was sitting inbetween katie and sal and sal asked to sit by her and i said no cuz i didnt want to sit next to ppl i didnt know and have them be making out and so then i was just flirting with him really bad, and then katie left and i still flirted with him, but i dont remember ever sticking his fingers in my mouth
BadKitty3618: but i did shove popcorn up his nose! lol
Luvnthegame247: so..lol...u flirted with sal..and u r admiting it?
Luvnthegame247: thats kool
BadKitty3618: haha yu[
BadKitty3618: yup**
BadKitty3618: oh well..i just flirted with him. i dont like him
Luvnthegame247: but u do knwo that is sa right?
BadKitty3618: lol
BadKitty3618: ya
Luvnthegame247: ok
Luvnthegame247: lol
Luvnthegame247: no i am just messing
Luvnthegame247: sal is a pimp
Luvnthegame247: atleast he got flirted with form ya
BadKitty3618: haha right!
BadKitty3618: lol
BadKitty3618: so do u still like me or was it just a fluke?
Luvnthegame247: wasnt a fluke
BadKitty3618: so does that mean that you still like me?
Luvnthegame247: well wut do u think?
BadKitty3618: that u like me?
BadKitty3618: am i right?
Luvnthegame247: well wut do u want?
BadKitty3618: huh?
Luvnthegame247: for it to be a fluke or for me to still like u?
BadKitty3618: i would want you to like me
Luvnthegame247: well then i like you
Luvnthegame247: i always have noelle
BadKitty3618: didnt you just tell annette *like 3 days ago* that you have liked her for a year or something like that?
Luvnthegame247: as in i still had feelings for her
BadKitty3618: ya
BadKitty3618: did u??
Luvnthegame247: thats wut i just said
BadKitty3618: oh
BadKitty3618: lol
Luvnthegame247: lol
BadKitty3618: so u like annette and me?
Luvnthegame247: no....i dont liek annette as in to go ut with her
BadKitty3618: huh? then how do u like her?
Luvnthegame247: lol...as in i still have feelings for her
BadKitty3618: lol
BadKitty3618: ok..but u like me as in going out with me right?
Luvnthegame247: i still have feeling for all my x g/f's...just for putting up with me
Luvnthegame247: u know it
BadKitty3618: lol
Luvnthegame247: i have always wanted to go out with u
BadKitty3618: how come you never told me?
Luvnthegame247: i worte it to u ...but then i ....dunno i just unsent itcuz...welll u never flirted with me or nething so i didnt even think uw ould even write back much less like me back
BadKitty3618: oh
BadKitty3618: well i donno...u r always going out with girls so i never thought that u liked me, and u were always making fun of me
Luvnthegame247: yeah but i made fun of u just so i could talk to ya
Luvnthegame247: lol
BadKitty3618: lol
BadKitty3618: so whats gunna happen when u come back in town?
BadKitty3618: like with u and me?
Luvnthegame247: well the first night i will prolly get drunl cuz i have been sitting on my ass this whole time..then the only think that pops up in my mind when im drunk is one person so then i will prolly call u or talk to u on line
Luvnthegame247: well i would like to do somehting wiht u
BadKitty3618: sounds fun
Luvnthegame247: or i will prolly want tot alk to u really bad and i will skip getting drunka nd go ahead and call u
Luvnthegame247: either way ya know
Luvnthegame247: im going to callya
BadKitty3618: lol

So after this I talk to Tyler *he made me call him* and he said that still kinda lkes me and little, and that it hurts him that i am going to the movies with Tyce. So then he asked me if I would go to the movies with him on Sunday. I said yea of cource, but then i just realized that Sunday is fathers day..so i donno what i am going to do. Well Leslie is about to call me!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Sun, 09 Jun 2002 23:04:13 GMT

hello dare! i am so tired!today we went house shopping! we went in Reflection Lakes, its pretty nice and i want to move in there cuz i hate it in Gateway. But we have to build a house and its like 300,000 and it will take 6 to 10 months. i am pretty sure we r going to get it! im glad cuz its really close to Annette and where Alexa *kinda* is going to move.

This weekend was a lot of fun. On thursday night i went to soccer *only 5 people showed up! haha* and then i went to Nelly's house. and her shower is so messed up! the head thing flew off and almost hit me in the face!! lol. Then Bruno came and he took Leslie and ALexa for a ride. They were going to go get weed, but this person they were going to get it from wasnt home or something like that. Then when they got back Leslie and me were in Nelly's room and Nelly and Alexa were out side and her step mom went out side and she saw them and was like "nelly? NELLY!!!" and i thought that Nelly was gone and me and Leslie were like omg! what do we do. But Nelly, ALexa, and Bruno were down by the church. And Bruno jumped in the bushes so fast! and then he left and Leslie had his cell phone. and we have no way of getting ahold of him! haha, oh well he'll get his phone next year! Then Nelly's dad came home and we waited til he went to sleep and we took a couple of shots *i had this shit, i dont remember what it was called but it was so nasty! and Alexa loved it, i dont know what that child is thinking sometimes!* and then Nelly had found some cigarets in her room *i have no clue how they got there* and so we smoked one. Alexa didnt want to, so it was just me Leslie and Nelly that did it. And it smelled soo bad! we were sitting there spraying all this shit! it was hilarious! Then we *i mean Alexa, Leslie, and Nelly! they wouldnt let me have a fone! grr* talked to Landon till like 4 in the morning!! and then the next day Landon and Ryan came over. That was a lotta fun. We made margarettas *how ever u spell that* and this litl boy Decota was gunna like tell on us or he kept saying was so Alexa, Leslie, and Nelly poured theirs out. I drank mine! :) Then i got like fucking raped by Ryan! but it was kinda fun! lol...

Then Nelly had to leave and go to her moms so Me, Alexa, and Leslie went to Alexa's house and got ready for the movies. We saw Ya-Ya Sisterhood. The movie was kinda lame, but i had a good time. We saw Annette...She pretty mush like ignored me, it was like she didnt even want to see me. But Kim was nice! she is always nice. Then we were walking to the shops and my step mom was in a car and i didnt know it and i was talking to deanna and i was like yelling "fuck u deanna! fuck you and your ugly hair!" *i was just joking* and then i saw my step mom and i was like shhhiiiiiit! but i donno, she didnt say anything about it. Thenwe got back to my house, watched Dismissed and ate McDonalds.

Then on Saturday Me and Alexa woke up at like 11:30, Leslie was still sleeping...we came downstairs and were online and Amanda IMed me *it was all Alexa, i didnt want ne thing to do with Amanda, i dont even give a shit what he or Katie say about me, so Alexa talked to them *i love Alexa!!*
SoccerBabe0225: hey noelle this amanda anyways, katies dog wants your 7 digits, if you know what i mean
BadKitty3618: hey bitch this is alexa
BadKitty3618: ya'll need to stop calling her a dog!
SoccerBabe0225: o hey alexa!whats up girl?!
BadKitty3618: don't talk to me like im ur friend!
BadKitty3618: we know that all you guyz do is talk sh*T about every single one of us and u even talk Sh8t about the ppl in ur 'group'!
SoccerBabe0225: o i cant holla at a mexi?
BadKitty3618: don't even call me a mexi
SoccerBabe0225: you know i'm jerkin your chicken, anywayz we dont talk about leslie or eachtoher as in me susie kaite sam robert and brad (and lelsie for that matter)
BadKitty3618: ya'll have talked sh*t about each other to me so don't say that u don't
BadKitty3618: and y are you guyz isolating us from the rest of u?
SoccerBabe0225: give me one example...
BadKitty3618: trying to tell me that robert and themw eren't over there
SoccerBabe0225: yeah basically...we only miss leslie
SoccerBabe0225: how is that talking shit about eachother stupid!
BadKitty3618: well she misses yall too so maybe u should ask her
BadKitty3618: well i know u have before even to mr
BadKitty3618: me*
BadKitty3618: example * oh no she's in a 'mood'
BadKitty3618: when leslie gets hyper all ya'll do is say that
BadKitty3618: and i know that sometimes we all get into tiffs and stuff but this has gone on way too long
SoccerBabe0225: ask her what? whenever we go to invite her to do something with all of us she seems to busy with you guys so why bother?anyways she' probly string noelle along with her...and i know sometimes we all get into tiffs and stuff but this has gone on too long,*oh yah and dont try and tell that you guys arent over there talking shit about us so we are even in that matter
BadKitty3618: we rnt actually
BadKitty3618: and none of yall have even called her so how would u know that she is busy with us?
BadKitty3618: what the ehll do u have against noelle? She is so nice and so sweet and doesn't stab anyone in the back like ya'll do
SoccerBabe0225: hmm her journal entrys...stuff like that...and anyways we didnt leslie invite us to do something with you guys?
BadKitty3618: cuz she was upset
SoccerBabe0225: o you think i care what you think of noelle we will make our own judgements theres nothing she can do asbout that
SoccerBabe0225: upset about what?
BadKitty3618: that she wasnt asked anywhere..so we invited her places she wasnt just gonna stay home
BadKitty3618: and if u don't want to hear what she has to say heres a hint.... STAY OUT OF HER JOURNAL!!!!
SoccerBabe0225: well alotta times we just expected to invite her places but she had already made plans with the dog i mean noelle my bad
SoccerBabe0225: we can read it if we wont to
BadKitty3618: the dog i mean noelle? that is so lame cow i mean amanda!
BadKitty3618: i kno u can thats y they're publc but u guys complain b/c of what she says in it so stay out of it if u dont want to hear it
SoccerBabe0225: ok beaner i mean wet back i mean tomato picker i mean alexa whatever i was just kidding *anyways you guys cant take a joke
SoccerBabe0225: besides alexa you dont know me, we are just judgeing eachother of what we look like so dont take it personal
BadKitty3618: YOU FUCKING WHITE TRASH BACKSTABBING CRACKER! A WET BACK IS A CUBAN INCASE UR STUPID ASS DIDN'T KNOW.
BadKitty3618: thats the exact reason why i'm taking it personally is b/c of that fact that you don't kno me or who i am.
BadKitty3618: and u don't kno shit about noelle or leslie's lives
BadKitty3618: sam might but she's not on the comp. calling me a beaner
SoccerBabe0225: o gee i aint the presidant of the word useage department, and besides you've never seen my house i could be the richest person in town
BadKitty3618: it doesnt matter how much money you have... no offense or anything but look @ katie and me and her were best friends
SoccerBabe0225: anyways maybe i dont want to know whats going on in noelle's life and i am pretty updated in whats going on in leslie's unleess she thinks other wise
BadKitty3618: and trailer trash doesnt mean ur poor i can tell by the way u talk
BadKitty3618: so tel me amanda.... what were Leslie's test results?
SoccerBabe0225: whats dies you and kati not being good friends anymore have to do with anything
BadKitty3618: im comparing it to the money statement u just said
SoccerBabe0225: o well i wouldnt know since leslie hasnt even been in contact with sam these past 2 weeks
BadKitty3618: thats all her fault?
BadKitty3618: u kno what tihs whole time leslie will comment on things that remind her of sam not even knowing it and i know they havent spoken but thats not all leslie
SoccerBabe0225: well its not sam's fault neither
BadKitty3618: well dont say its leslies
BadKitty3618: this isnt between u and me anyways
SoccerBabe0225: i didnt directly say its all leslies fault dadadada
BadKitty3618: and what does sam and leslie not talking have to do with u finding anynthing out about lelsie?
SoccerBabe0225: i know
BadKitty3618: well u said it in a meaningful way and u know it
SoccerBabe0225: because that would pretty much be how i would kknow her "test results" and if i do get an im from leslie i am not gonna bluntly be like "HEY LESLIE ARE YA GONNA DIE?"thats rude if she wants me or anyone else to know she will come out and like call us or something
BadKitty3618: yeah but u should be therer to comfort her and i'm not going to tell u how u should be but damn that's common sense amanda
BadKitty3618: u think this is easy on her esp.barely having any friends?
SoccerBabe0225: how do we comfort her if we dont even know whats going to happen to her?what should we just geuss?
SoccerBabe0225: not having any friends?she knows she has us and she obivously has you guys if your with her 24/7 now a days
BadKitty3618: heres a hint... hey leslie how are u feeling today???
BadKitty3618: u guys dont act like friends to her i mean if sam cared then she would try to call her and i kno u gonna say well lelsie should call too ubt don't u thikn thats weird... especailly since the two of them didn't even start the fight between them?

I hope everyone see how mean people can be. Amanda should have never brought Alexa's race into this! she is such a bitch.

But after that was the best day i have had all summer! It started to rain so we got off the computer and put on our bathing suits and went to the pool. then we got sick of the pool and we came back and took a bath. Then Alexa was like "i wanna smoke" and i was like ok... and so she went and go a cigaret and was going to do it outside, and i was like, no im not gunna do it right now, you guys could and Leslie didnt want to so Alexa didnt do it. So Alexa went up stairs and the next thing i know she comes downstairs and shes like i smoked it. and im like WHAT?! it the house!! omg, it smelled like smoke so bad! *my parents were shopping by the way* and Sue smokes, but rarely in the house! So i am like sparying all this shit to make it better! but it like doesnt work. But by the time they got home the smell was gone so we were all good. The is started raining again and so we went to this playground!! we went on the swings and then it started to rain really hard and i went to go down this slide and i like slipped and fell on the ground. and then we did a train down this swirl slide and there was a big puddle at the bottum and our asses got so so wet! and i was laughing so hard and i had to pee. So i went to pee in a bush but cars kept coming so we went to this Girl Scouts building but it was closed and so i finally got the nerve to pee in this bush right next to the steet. So i am peeing and i am like half way through and this car comes! and the street is like 5 feet away from me. And i pulled up my pants, but i couldnt stop peeing!!! so i pissed *just a little tho* all over my self! So then we went and jumped into the pool so i didnt smell like piss! lol....then we came back to my house and put the wet chips away and went and walked around in the rain. Then Alexa remembed when he mom used to wash her hair in the rain or something?! i donno shes crazy! so we went in my driveway and put shampoo and con. in our hair and then it was only sprinkaling then so we had to use the hose to get it out of our hair! and we tried to make the driveway slippery. DOESNT WORK! i cut my leg! lol....then we came back inside and ate dinner. And when i was setting the table i saw Sue talking to my dad, and then she looked at me and stopped talking and i was like omg! she knows about the cigaret!! so i am likr freaked out. Then after dinner we are on the computer and my dad is like "Noelle come here" and so i walk over there and he was like "Sue has a question for you" Oh My God!! i was all red! and shes like "i have a deal for you." and she paused "you can have Leslie and Alexa spend the night tonight but you can go to the mall tomorrow" ahhhh..thank god! i was so scared. And so then we decided for them to spend the night.

So we were like just sitting around watching Undressed and we decided to call Katie and get Amandas number. So Alexa calls and gets it, but we really didnt feel like talking so we didnt call her and then Robert called and was like "susie is going to give you Amandas number so you can call her" and we r like "why the hell do u want us to call her" and hes like "i think it would be funny" god that boy gets amusement out of people suffering! we still didnt call her. Then we talked to Landon till 5 in the morning again. And Landon asked me to fart for him! hahaha...he had never heard a girl fart before and so i was totaly up for it! haha! and i almost peed my pants laughing so hard *here i go again peeing my pants!!* ....Me and Landon always have the best talkes. They are always about sex and masterbating!! lol...so me and Alexa were talking to Landon about that for like 3 hours!

So my weekend was alot of fun. I love hanging out with ALexa, Leslie, and Nelly! they're a ball!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Thu, 06 Jun 2002 19:15:30 GMT

Leslie got me hooked on the tests! They're Great! lol..

See what Care Bear you are.

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Which drink are you?

You're ANGER! You're not the most pleasant person to be around! You've got a short fuse, and you're almost always mad at the world. You're represented by the color red.

You are 10% evil! [?]

That's right! You're the meekest of the meek! You're the least amount evil! The philosophy in ying and yang is that no one person can be completely good or completely evil, but you're pretty close to complete, goodie-two-shoes!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Thu, 06 Jun 2002 00:47:43 GMT

hey! well this weekend was pretty interesting. Finally we got out of school! god it feels so good to be out of that hell whole! Then I went to the movies on Thursday. I was talking on the phone with Leslie and Annette called and i told her that i needed to talk to Leslie and she got all mad at me and i feel really bad, but i really did need to talk to Leslie cuz we were trying to figure out a ride for that night. So finaly after like 5 hours me and Leslie thought that we figured out a ride. So we went to the movies,we thought that a lot of people were going to be there - No one was there! - So then Nelly invited us to go over to her house. Nelly's dad wouldnt let ne boys come over so we made them walk all the way to Nelly's house. Nelly's house was a blast! The guys (Johnathon, Matt N. , Chad O. ,and Daniell) get there. And since they wernt supposed to be there they were scared. Then I think the dog hit the door and they jumped out of the window so fast! it was hilarious!! Then me and Leslie left at like 11, and Leslie spent the night.
The next morning me and Leslie got up at 7! We took showers and got dresed and then went over to Matt N. house *the night be4 Robert called Leslie's cell and told her that he couldnt take us* So at Matt's we watched Ocean's 11...that was a good movie... so then at like 10 Matts sister took us to Sun Splash.. woo that was NOT fun at all... it was like filled with a bunch of fith graders. An then a lot of people were taking about me. But im not going to ge into that! So then we left Sun Splash at like 3:30...so now it was Me, Leslie and Alexa...We went back to Leslie's house and got ready for Adam's party. The party was a lot of fun. When all the dancing started we were like uhh No! but then after we got into it we were the center of attraction! lol....all the guys were like damn and looking at us. Then Leslies brother was like "Look 14 why dont ya" haha, look what Dunbar middle does to ya! Then after that Justin brought us home and we went and got french fries from Walmart! *me and leslies favorite place!!*
Then the next day we went to Alexa's house. We had to babysit her little brother and sister. i love her brother...but i really dont liek her sister. Ya ok, she is only 6th months. but she is just unpleasent! Then the next day my daddy came and picked us up at 9 and we went on my boat! it was a lot of fun. We went to the beach and ate and walked around. And Leslie stole this thing *im not allowd to tell* from this guy who was hitting on us *she is going to give it to Sam* Then we went to the shop on the pier and we bough shot glasses. Mine says "Drink Till She's a 10" *even tho its for a guy i think its funny!* and Leslies says "mean people suck..nice people swallow" and Alexa's says "from 0 to horny in 4 shots"...so this weekend was pretty fun. But this week sucked. My dad wouldnt let me do ne thing cuz i did so much this weekend! hes crazy....
But now me and Annette are like not close at all and its making me really sad. But me and Leslie have become good friends, but i still miss Annette alot!!! oh and get this! when we were at Leslies house Alexa was talking to Sam online and she sent me the convo, and Sam said "oh i was just about to come out and tell everyone that i didnt like Noelle" omg...i thought i was going to cry....but i didnt, i couldnt cry. but it hink that is the meanist thing ne one has ever said! i thought me and Sam were good friends, but i guess she couldnt stand me all along! That really hurt when she said that....but whatever. I am talking to the 17 year old guy *me and leslie are messing with him* we told him that we were bi together and all this tuff, and hes like "i want you to sit on my face!" *lol Alexa!* and its hilarious!!
My mom is going to therapy now...she wants me to go with her one time.I am thinking about it but i dont know....i hate going places with her. Its all weird now. and i donno.. but i am going o go! bye bye

badkitty3618@aol.com — Tue, 28 May 2002 01:49:52 GMT

this weekend was alotta fun! first on friday night i had nothig to do and didnt want tosit on my ass, and annette had to go the the FMHS football game so i called Leslie and asked her what she was doing *movies* so went. we saw Enough. the movie was alright. when we went to sit down Sal was behind me and i really didnt want to sit on the end to i sat next to Katie an Sal. he kept asking to si by Katie but i didnt want them to b aking out and me sit next to these people i dont even know. Me and Sal were flirtin really bad, but i dont like him, i just wanted to flirt wth someone. so then Katie got up and left. and then after the movie and shes like WHAT THE FUCK IS UR PROBLEM and she like pushed me.and i just started laughing cuzshe looked retarted. and then she was like "you know me and Sal have a thing" and im like "since when" and she starts screaming "SINCE FUCKING WHEN, SINCE FUCKING WHEN" i just laughed at her. and the *this was really rude* "are you hungry Noelle? do you want me to feed you" an i was just like "Katie stop" and then later on Sal was like "we dont have a thing!" so that kinda ruined my night. but i did have a really good time hanging out ith Leslie and Sal at the movies.
Then Annette came over n Saturday. We went to this playground, hat was alot of fun. then when we came back my das le i am going clubbing *my dad is so cool! i love him* and so him and sue leave ad as they are leaving im like can we have a Bacardi Silver. and he like ya have 1. and so me and Annette hav 2. We wernt even that drunk, but we were more hyper. it was so funny! then my step brother came home and i was like "can u turn down the air, its so hot. I cant work the air. i think i changed th time" or soething like that. and he just laughed at me and changed it. Then we went to Alex Viles party. That was so much fun! it was the best party i have been to all year!
Then me and Annette went back o her house and Kim and Eric came over. Of couse we snuck out! wht eles would we do at Annettes house! lol j/k! but we left at like 2. we were going to leave at 1 but stupid Chad and Mike*Erica's boyfriend* called and woke up her mom. So we jump his fence into Whisky Creek. We are waling for like 2 hours! and we r spposed to meet him at Barbara B Mann but we got there and they wernt there. So we walked all the way back. i think we walked 10 miles for nothing. *oh the reson we wer meeting them is cu we didnt have a lighter,and we had some really good "stuff"* omg icant belve myself! i am the most retarted person ever! i am climbing Annette's fence and i was tring to be really careful about dropping things, cuz i did last time! and iput two shoes up and i went to grab the 3rd and i dropped it! i was like OMG!!! and i got in her house and i just wantd to cry! had fucking ruined it for all of us. so Annette was totally pissed at me. and i was like i can get it, and she was like NO! i was like justle m try. and she still told me no. and so i did it anyway. n i needed some1 to help me, but Kimis too affriad of Annettes dad so i was all by myself. so went down in the kitchen and opened the sliding glass door, and then climbed over some plants and grabbed the shoe. so i wold have ruined it for everyone, but i fixed it *thank god*... so then when i got in Annettes room and Kim and I found some matches *duh, we should have found those earlier* and we smoked. Annette didnt want to and neither did Eria so it was ust me and Kim. and we only had a little cuz we had to save some for today. And sotoday we went to the pol and smoked in te bathroom. Mike met us there. it was alot of fun!
Oooo...gawd on friday *i think it was friday, but i dont remember* i was sitting in chorus with Adrian and Mchael and Justin were like come here. so i went and they were like "can michael feel on your boob. hes never felt on one before" and i thought about it. and i ws going to and then Michael whispered somehting in Justins ear and i was like what did u say. and he was like "i am pretty desperate" and i was lik im leaving. Then like 5 minutes later they told me to come back and i was like oook. and then Michael was like Sam and Justin were just eeing if you would or not. and i was like ya thats great! *i didnt say ne of this* thats a real good thig to do to your friend Sam! see how slutty theyare or whatever! god that is a really bitchy thing to do! but whatever. i am tired!! bye bye

badkitty3618@aol.com — Sat, 04 May 2002 00:23:40 GMT

hey! i have no idea what nostalgic means!! but i put it just cuz. i am at my dads house. i kinda moved in...i donno, i just told him that im not going back to my moms house! last night i went to Kims. It was alot of fun *but Annette and Kim didnt think that i was having fun* i really was, i think its just cuz i dont know Kim that well and i am still kinda shy around her...well when i got there i met Duffy *Kims cousin* he's really hot! then we begged him to go buy us something to dring. we got takila *i have no freaking idea how to spell that* but it didnt taste that good-i wasnt really in the mood to drink it. then we got high. that was alot of fun! lol...i donno if Kim likes me alot...i donno, but i had a good time! then today Erica came over*she is really nice!* i wasnt really uncomfortable, but it was weird, i think that i was jut being shy. I wanna say this, but then idont. but i am going to anyway....me and Annette have been weird lately. whenever Kim is with us she like snaps at me. and i donno i just always get the feeling that she doesnt want to be with me, just Kim. but i donno. guess what! its another friday night and i am sitting on my ass ding nothing! well i think that i am going to go and watch a movie!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 29 Apr 2002 21:52:57 GMT

I need to stop eating!! jeeze-o-man...i cant stop! lol i am going to get fat! Leslie just wrote me a email about that she was sorry for that whole stupid fight that we had. i really wasnt mad at her the whole time, i just didnt really want to talk to her. but it was really weird with not really talking to her. in the halls everyday i felt out of place cuz Sam would always be with Leslie and Annette would be downstairs so i would just stand there. i am going to write Leslie back soon, but i dont feel like it right now.

Today in 7th period Sam was like "I need to ask you something" and like Justin and Kyle were like kinda laughing at me and i was thinking OMG! Robert told them about how i was hungry that night!!! and so i asked Sam if it was about that, and she was like "No!" finally she told me as we were walking out of class. Justin thinks that i like him. haha...i kinda DID tho, but not really. i just like flirting with him! I kinda like someone eles that goes to our school...woo, but im not going to tell! its a secret!

Everyone is at the Ft. Myers open house :( i am all alone. i dont wanna go to high school! i wanna get out of middle school, but i want summer to stay forever! i am REALLY going to miss Annette next year! i know we will still talk, but it wont be as much. i hope that me and Kim become good friends. we r already pretty good friends but like i donno, it kinda weird. Annette said to me today "You and Kim think that you both hate eachother" i really dont hate Kim. I love hanging out with her!!! but i think next year it will be weird without Annette there. But i dont think that me and Kim will have a lot of classes together :( When we r over at Annettes house i always get the feeling that me and Kim are like sharing Annette, but i dont mind. I just love being with both of them *its barrels of fun* lol...dude i sound really corney. but its true. And if Kim reads this - i dont hate you! not at all!! and the only reason i said that i wish Annette didnt know you was cuz i was jeliouse cuz she always goes over there.

Lately I feel like me and Annette have been drifting. I really dont like that feeling. i dont know why i feel like that - but she feels like it too. she said that it might be just cuz it is at the end of the year....i dont want to drift apart. i think me and Annette need to spend some quality time together, just me and her! :) i really hope that me and Annette stay good friends through high school. i have never been this good of friends with anyone. well i am going to go do some homework.

badkitty3618@aol.com — Mon, 29 Apr 2002 01:30:29 GMT

hey. i am really bored. well tonight was a very interesting night! i come home from Annettes, take a shower, and sit down to eat dinner. right off the bat my mom starts bitching at me for getting food on the table! grr then we started talking about high school, and my sister was like have u gone to the open house yet and i was like no and Johnna was like "ya mom didnt go with my to my college open house" and then my mom s like "YES I DID" and i was like no, i remember Johnna complaining about it. and then my moms like "well i just felt like i was ganged up on" then she paused for like 20 seconds "i guess i was never a good mother all these years" and she walked out side, Johnna followed her. i wanted to bust out laughing *i am going to hell!!* then Tom and me were sitting at the table and i go "well i guess this means that dinner is over" and i put my dish in the dish washer. then i walked up stairs and called Annette. i am such a bad child! my mom was like all upset and i was laughing. then Johnna told me that she was sticking upo for me and my mom was like "Noelle doesnt do shit" and Johnna agreed with her *fuck that! i do to do shit around here* but whatever. then Johnna left. but my mom isnt like being a bitch 4 once in her life right now!

Well i have to say Saturday night sucked. i was so dissapointed! nothing went according to plan!! grawl....well first of all, me annette and kim couldnt get ahold of Mike! we kept calling him but no one was picking up. so then we got online to see if he was on. Tyler was on, so we were like r u at Mikes house?? and he was like "No. Mike never called me" we thought he was lieing but then he got off and we called him at his house so he wasnt at Mikes :( we were all really pissed at Mike. but then i just found out that Mikes was broken into. i feel so bad for him. they stold his ps2, and some vodka or something like that. so now im not mad at Mike anymore. ~but back to Saturday night~ Annette was talking to Tyler like the whole time. i was talking to him for a while but then i didnt want to *cuz like i dont like talking to him cuz i start to like him again* but then like i could tell like everything tha thim and Annette were talking about *it was mostely about me and him* but i was getting really like weird. i was like depressed, and like i needed to cry but it wouldnt come out. and i started jabbing my arm with my safety pin. and like it was making me mad cuz like my skin wouldnt break, no matter how hard i pushed it in...and like my arm was all red, but i didnt hurt. But Annette and Tyler were talking about like me and his relationship and like he was saying how like juts making out was getting boring and then some other stuff...but i would rather not say that on my online journal. but it made me really sad!! and liek i donno, i guess i was just jelious that ANnette was talking to him and not me, but i didnt want to talk to him so it was stupid to get jelious...... but after we got off the phone with Tyler we left and wenand waited for Ryan to come and pick us up. Kim told them to leave at 1:20...so we leave at 1:20 too *we r retarted - well Kim is, she told us when we had to leave! lol* so we were out side for 20 minutes. and everytime a car would drive by we would duck behing a parked car, it was so funny. then this car came and parked where we were and we dove in the bushes, it was so funny. Kim almost made me pee my pants! she was like jumping behind me and like screaming OMG! it was the hilar*ious!! finally Ryan came at 1:40. we went over to this girl Melodys place. her parents own this motel place and so we went to her room that she stays in sometime. we went swimming in our bras and cheerleading shorts, but then the bugs kept biting us so we went back. so when we went back to Melody's place it was Me, Annette, Kim, Tony, Ryan. Brandon, and Melody. Ryan really lies A LOT! and so everytime he lies we like put our fingers through our hair...its so funny. Tony is really funny. He would be really hot if he didnt weigh so much. but i think that he is cute that way. Melody made us leave at liek 3:30 so we went driving. Ryan did a fishtail or something, it was so much fun, he almost ran into a sign. Then we got home at like 4:45...as we were getting on the shed i was putting our tennishoes on the balkeny and i dropped a sock!!! i cant belive it! i was like SHIT!! and Annette was like just get inside!! so i was like omg, what do we do. then this morning he dad and mom were like "did u guys lose a sock, r u sure u didnt lose a sock" and we were like nope!! this is great! they r probably going to catch on soon. well i guess the weekend didnt suck to much. i love hanging out with Kim and Annette, its so much fun. well i guess i am going to go do some homework!

badkitty3618@aol.com — Sat, 27 Apr 2002 20:38:47 GMT

omg i am so tired!!! i just got back from my sister's baby shower - it was so boring...she got a lot of things tho. i cant wait till she has her babay. he's gunna be adorable!! i am waiting for Annette to call me. i called her when i got home but no one picked up :( i hope i can get a hold of her be4 like i cant go over there. i hate when she goes over to kims cuz i can never get ahold of her. i am talking to yasmin, she is really nice. she was telling me how she knows Tyler and like hes such a sweetie bla bla bla...i donno, i hate talking about Tyler cuz it makes me sad! ....well ne ways! i was really hungry last night! *sorry 4 the people who dont know what hungry means* i am turning into Annette! lol....3 times last nigth!! woo! it was a blast! well i guess that i am going to go... Annette better call me soon! i really wanna go over there!! grrr

badkitty3618@aol.com — Fri, 26 Apr 2002 22:38:59 GMT

hey...i have been sitting home now for 2 hours. and not a one person has called. its really sad, i just relized how many friends i have~one. Annette. she is at cheerleading tho. i dont know when she will get back tho. its terrible, i am bored out of my mind and i have nothing to do. i dont think i am going to go out any where tonight. Annette is going over to Kims house. i will probably go to sleep at 8 or something. i would call Sam and ask her if she is going to the movies or something but i donno, im not really in the mood to go to the movies...sometimes i wish that Annette disnt know Kim. i love Kim~shes really sweet, but like i get really sad when she goes over there cuz i dont have anyone to be with. and like its different for Annette cuz like i i got outta town 4 a soccer tounry she can just go over to Kims, but i dont have anyone eles. but i donno, i am just thankful that i have Annette. me and Annette exchanged dedication journals today - i love hers! its so cute, i think she liked mine too! it was really bad cuz we were talking about the journals and Monica asked Sam who she did it for *Leslie* and then she askes who Leslie did it for and Sam said "me" and Alexa was liek "of course she did!" and like Alexa is always telling Sam that she is the center of Leslie's life... bla bla bla, but its true - its just like me and Annette tho, we both r the center of eachothers lifes. but i feel bad for Alexa, cuz Leslie has known her her whole life *almost* and like treats Sam better then her. not that thats bad, but like i just feel bad for Alexa, cuz i dont think she has a best friend, liek her and Katie always fight. but i donno. well i have to go clean the fucking kitchen!! bye bye